I am very deeply saddened by the tragedy that unfolded in Brussels, Belgium today. I am also very disgusted. How many times will we let terrorists get way with murdering our people? We had the bombing at the Boston marathon, and yes those responsible were brought to justice, and then we had the terror attacks in Paris,France in November, and yes that time too those responsible were hunted down, and today we had the terrorist bombings in Belgium. Because of terrorists like Isis we have become fearful of and prejudiced against cultures and religions that are different from us. Here is what I say. We must not live in fear. We must stand strong. We must come together without predjudice to show those who would try to destroy our way of life that they will not win. If all of the countries of the world come together United than the terrorists could not win against that army! We ARE one world and we ARE one people. I think we all need to remember that! My heart and prayers go out to the victims of the terror attacks in Belgium and their families.

             Some things take me awhile to learn. Like riding a bike without training wheels or tying my shoe laces. But all that I learned when I was little. Even as an adult I am still learning. Most recently I learned a hard lesson. My parents always taught me to always stand up for myself. In my personal life I had no problem doing that. I don't let people push me around. But work was always a different story. I always thought that when it came to my bosses if they were criticizing me, even if I hadn't done anything wrong, I couldn't say anything in my defense because, well u shouldn't do that with bosses. But I now have a different view on that. 
             One day at work, I wont tell the whole story because that would take too long lol, one of the managers asked me to do something when I was on my break and when I told her no because I was ON MY BREAK and trying to shop she got extremely mad at me. So later she took me in the office and said all these untrue things about me. I knew in my heart that there was no way I could sit there and let her do that so I said things back to defend myself. Of course she barely let me get a word in. I was pissed, but I went on with the rest of the day as I always do. But the next day, even though it was my day off, I went to my store and sat down with my boss. I very calmly told her what had happened the previous day. The good thing is, I have worked with her for many many years,  and she knows me well and knows I am a good worker. I never complain to any of the managers at work about anything. When I get upset I just take deep breaths and move on. But this time was different. I wasn't being a tattle tale I was standing up for what I knew was right. When I finished talking my boss told me not to worry. I wasn't going to get in trouble. She would talk to the manager who had yelled at me. I thanked her and left. Since then I have had no problems with said manager. 
                  I felt good that I had stood up for myself. I will never let anyone treat me with disrespect again. So whether it's in your personal life, or at work, always stand up for yourself when you need to because if you don't, no one else will, and you are your own best supporter! BE STRONG! Lesson learned.  

So things got a little crazy for me and havent had time to update my site much but I came to write this for a special reason! I have recently been giving many incredible blessings and Im so thankful so I am going to pay it foward!
     This is to help out a friend of mine on Twitter. She and some other amazing Kyke Xy fans have  created a fantastic page on Facebook to help get other fans involved in making a Season four for the show or a movie happen. The main Kyle XY actors have tweeted that if such a movie were to be created they would be onboard to do it! So if you would like more info on how you can hep with this you can comment on this blog and I will do my very best to answer your questions or you can click on this link to the Facebook page www.facebook.com/pages/KYLE-XY-...    KYLE XY FOREVER! <3

I haven't written a new blog in awhile mostly because work has been crazy and when I get home I'm so tired I don't have the energy to drag out my computer. But I suddenly got inspired to write this.
    I admit I was a little shocked when Matt Dallas came out to his fans on Twitter and announced his engagement to Blue Hamilton. Not because I have a problem with gay people(quite the opposite in fact) but because i just wasn't expecting it. I don't think anyone was! LOL 
    But ever since, I have been nothing but happy for Matt. I see how happy he is with Blue and it just warms my heart! It also warmed my heart to see how supportive his fans were of him. I'm proud to call a lot of them my good friends. Now that's not to say I haven't seen a little negativity about it. Everyone has there own opinions and beliefs. I would just like to say that I believe love is love whether it's between two guys, two girls, or a guy and a girl.  Everyone deserves to find true love! I have a good friend who is gay and I wish him only the best! And When Matt and Blue have their wedding, I hope with all my heart that their marriage is filled with all the blessings and joy in the world.
    Now I know that when people read this blog not everyone will feel the same as I do or agree with the things I've said and that's ok! I respect everyone's thoughts and beliefs. All I ask in return, is that all who see this respect mine! Much love to all! :).

So I thought I would create a blog where people could have a place to vent if something is bothering them or to get advice if they need it. I am a very good listener! Anyway I know there are times when everyone needs a friend and you will always find one here. So feel free to post something if you need to, and I will do my best to answer back if you want me to. Like the picture to the left, I know it can make a person's day if someone reaches out a helping hand to them when they need it most. :)

I wanted to write about this subject earlier, but with the holidays, I was so busy at work and didn't get time until now. The following words come from my heart. As they always do.
    When I saw on the news what had happened at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown Conneticut that terrible Friday morning, I was heartbroken. My prayers immediately went out to the parents who had lost their children, children who would never get to grow up, and to the families of the teachers who died trying to protect their young charges. Their lives had been snuffed out like a candle flame blowing out.
    I could not help but think, how could such a sensless tragedy happen? How could someone just walk into a school and kill innocent children? And this so close to Christmas! I am sure I was not the only one asking those questions. Not the only one who wanted the answers. Many gifts went unopened this holiday season. Gifts that should have brought shouts of joy. Instead their was only silence.
    Then I could not help but think, how can all of the terrible gun violence that keeps happening all over the country possibly be stopped? Stricter gun laws? More security at schools? How to prevent weopons from getting into the wrong hands? I wish I knew the answers. I wish it was an easy problem to solve. I truelly hope that the terrible atrocity that was commited at Sandy Hook Elementary NEVER happens at any other school. I hope that more people do not have to lose thier loved ones. I hope we can come together as a nation and make some changes for the better.
    And to the families of the teachers and children who lost thier lives in Conneticut, I hope they find some peace and comfort in knowing that their loved ones are safe in Jesus' loving arms. And there they will be until they can be reunited one day in heaven. May precious memories and love see them through. May they feel God's strength and love. I pray for them and for heaven's newest angels. May they all find the peace they so richly deserve.

    So today I had a bad experience and a good experience. First the bad. I may not be a doctor, but I will swear to the end of my days that my boss is bypolar. She has two faces. One, she is nice, and two, she is the biggest witch(I could use a worse word, but I won't!) in the world. I could give many examples of what I mean but for now I will use just one.
    When I was at work my boss came in at 2pm and right away she started in on me. Didn't matter I had worked hard all day, oh no, she had to point out the things I did not have a chance to get done. As soon as she left me alone, I'm thinking, "She is a witch! I can't stand her!" Sometimes, I wish i could tell her that to her face, but of course as she is my boss I will always show her respect no matter what, even when she doesn't show me any in return. 
    After I had finished what she wanted me to, she switched right into nice mode, telling me she really appreciated me, and I'm such a good worker, blah, blah, blah. I tell  you her mood swings give me a headache! And that is how it is most days. One minute she is attacking me and the next she is as sweet as could be.  But then the good part of my day made me forget all about it! I was tweeting with my awesome Twitter friend Franco and he made me laugh and smile and feel happy. Which is such a nice feeling after being so stressed out! I am so lucky to have such a good friend! If it weren't for my amazing Twitter friends, I don't know where I would be! But it is the greatest gift to know they are always there for me! So my boss might drive me nuts, but my friends fill me with joy. :)

    So awhile back I posted a blog about a new guy I had met. (Don't look for it though because I have deleted it.) Well this is an update to that blog.
    You see, this guy, for awhile made me feel happy. I thought that he liked me and maybe when we got to know eachother better it could be a romantic relationship. Then it all was gone. Just like that. 
    One Saturday night he texted me and said that he had accidentally just started dating someone and he hadn't wanted to tell me because I am so nice. I didnt even know what to say because I was not expecting that, but I was crushed. I will not repeat everything I said to him but I will say that I told him I couldn't talk to him anymore. Then I deleted his number out of my phone. I cried that whole night. Woke up with puffy, swollen eyes. Not pretty. 
    The next day I posted sad faces on Twitter. And I was awed and touched when right away my friends showed their concern by asking me what was wrong. When I told them, their responses warmed my broken heart. First was my friend @FNIAXY also known as the awesome Franco! :) He told me that that guy was stupid to do that to me because I am a beautiful, funny, cool woman. Those might not be his exact words but that was basically what he said. Well that made me feel good. He also sent me a hug and said he would always be there for me.
    Next was my friend @Kebflower4MDM also known as Bridgette the amazing artist! She listened, and through direct messages, gave me advice. She told me that what happened wasn't my fault and I should not feel bad. Then she said the right guy for me is out there and I will find him someday if I am patient and have faith. She also sent me hugs. And last was @_therealreason also known as the wonderful Michael! He told me that guy didn't know what he was missing! THat also made me feel good and made me smile. And Franco and Bridgette also told me jokes to make me laugh. If not for them I could not have pulled out of my sadness the way that I did. 
    In that blog I wrote about that guy I said that he was the window that God opened for me when he closed the door of me talking to my best friend. Well after my friends helped me get though my broken heart, it came to me. That guy wasn't the window. No, the window was my friends. The amazing thing is I have never met any of them in person, but they rallied around me when I needed them the most and showed me how much they care about me. That is a precious gift indeed. That, is real true love. :)

Thought I would make this blog about a funny occurance that happened at work the other day. Being in retail I meet a lot of interesting people. People who I swear come in just to cause trouble and go off the deep end over nothing, people who are really nice and put a smile on your face, and some who you could swear were not operating with a full deck of cards. Some days really are an adventure.
    On the day I want to tell you about, I was in the Mens department cleaning things up and putting clothes away when an elderly man politely asked me for help. He wanted to know where the pajamas were. As I was talking to him, he let out a fart. I don't think he even realized he did it, or if he did, he totally hid it well! Now some people would just start laughing. But not me. I held my composure and showed him where the pajamas were. While inside my head I'm thinking, OMG I can't believe he did that! 
    You would probably be surprised to know that it was not an uncommon occurance. A lot of older people shop in my store and there have been many times I have walked by an elderly man or woman and heard them pass gas. But hey, that's life! Sometimes you get hit with the unexpected! My job might  stress me out a lot, but it never gets boring with the kind of customers I get!
    So I told my mom this funny story and she laughed. "Well," she said, "That's what happens when you get old!" Hmmm maybe I don't want to get old! :)

Lately I have been having a hard time coming up with new blogs. It has been frusterating me because I like to keep them as updated as possible. But then, just the other day, I was surprised with sudden inspiration. One of my Twitter friends, @Kebflower4MDM, gave me the idea. She had sent me a direct message telling me about a special blog she wanted to write. She used the word Rose. And that was when it hit me.
    You see, roses have a very special significance for me. First, they were my grandma's favorite flower. She had a rosebush in her garden. Second, right after she died, something happened that I think of as a message from heaven.
    My mom and her two sisters were at my grandmother's house to plan the funeral. Of course it was a sad,emotional time. At one point the three of them went outside to walk around the garden that my grandma loved so much. (One of my precious memories is walking around it with her killing the slugs with salt,) :) When they got to the rosebush they got a surprise. It had not bloomed all summer, but there, right in the middle, were three big roses, fully open. My grandma had THREE daughters, and THREE roses suddenly bloomed. My mom and I believe that it was my grandma letting her and her sisters know that she was okay. Something for just her daughters to see and share. My mom took a picture of the rosebush that day. So now roses always make me think of my grandma and how much she loved me. And it also makes me think of the special sign that appeared that long ago summer. A message from heaven to provide comfort, ease the pain, and mend broken hearts.  :)